Though the media doesn't say a word there are a lot of people that are in their senior years and find the pills and pain and general deterioration of their lives more than they can bear. They see their close friends that they have known forever leaving them one by one. Familt members are dieing and children and grandchildren have their own lives they they no longer seem to be as big a part of as they once were.

Today my grandmother became one of these people by taking many more prescription pills than is safe and barricading herself in her bedroom. There were many times that she had said she would do this exact thing but we had all just ignored it as just her talking and nothing more. We all feel as though there is something we should have done and feel slightly responsible in some way shape or form though we all know it is irrational we can't stop the thoughts from coming. We all understand what has happened and it eats us anyway. Her youngest granddaughter, my cousin is almost 15 and she was the one that noticed that my grandmother was no longer breathing. It's something that she will never forget.

This is a way for me to talk about it. If no one comments here I won't mind one bit. It's a depressing topic that most never want to deal with and I sympathize. I never did before today.